I know that...

My dad is very sick and will not be working for a few months.

I need to provide for the family financially.

Neither my friends nor my family will help me in this regard, they will most likely not even acknowledge the problem exists, at best I will be told something asinine like, "Everything will be ok".

I no longer make 100,000 a year because I am no longer happy with life.

I MUST make $100,000 a year despite my emotional state.

My partner is not here to help. In fact, I should expect things to be significantly more difficult as a result of her presence.

I cannot bear to leave said partner, despite what I know.

I harbour foolish hopes of mutual cooperation and teamwork where none exist.

Deaf ears are my bed mates

I will fix everything.