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I know that... My dad is very sick and will not be working for a few months. I need to provide for the family financially. Neither my friends nor my family will help me in this regard, they will most likely not even acknowledge the problem exists, at best I will be told something asinine like, "Everything will be ok". I no longer make 100,000 a year because I am no longer happy with life. I MUST make $100,000 a year despite my emotional state. My partner is not here to help. In fact, I should expect things to be significantly more difficult as a result of her presence. I cannot bear to leave said partner, despite what I know. I harbou

So... here's my year so far; 6 digit debt 5 digit debt 4 digit debt All the above happening concurrently. Yay! Then there's the horrible realization that I no longer make $100,000 a year. Followed quickly by the realization that the person I wake up to every morning isn't really a person. She's just something that wakes up in the mornings. Ah yes, AIA had another crisis, which I handled quite well. Alas it was quickly followed by a 2nd crisis, that I'm not handling quite as well. In fact, I'm taking it quite badly. And I got conned into buying a boat that doesn't work because I was nice to an old guy Then I bought a new engine that

I think... it's time for me to recognize that trusting this one was a mistake. And to acknowledge that I'll probably never actually find what I'm looking for. I'm too tired of looking anyway. I just have to figure out what I have to do to fix everything now, reduce the risks I'm exposed to, financial liabilities, limit and eventually deny her access to critical operations. Man I really fucked up this time. And it's going to cost me isn't it? Ah well, about time I learned.